all settled back at alfred u. and so begins the emotional roller coaster called my senior year beginning with the endeavor of quitting smoking 3 days before my arrival. i did wonderfully until this past friday. stress hit me like a brick wall and i started smoking again. i have been smoking for 5 years and that has been my stress relief so i dont know how to deal with stress like a normal person. i cried so hard. cigarettes defeated me. i hate them. they make me stink. they make it hard for me to breath when i run. they drain my funds. fuck them. i need them and i hate them.
